“For it has been granted to you on behalf of Christ not only to believe on him, but also to suffer for him,” (Philippians 1:29)
When I think of being granted something I think of a prize. You know like I grant you the power to fly... Whoo Hoo. I mean that sounds fun right. But, when I was doing my reading tonight and came across this. The prize my flesh runs to is obveous, I get to believe in him. This is something I am thankful for (not nearly as much as I should be, because I'm human) but, "to suffer for him". Am I really thankful for that. I mean thanks for listening to me gripe God, thanks for letting me praise and worship, thanks for giving me the Holy Spirit, thanks for my family, my church, but Thanks for letting me suffer for you? I promise this is not something I have ever said. I am going to have to spend sometime with this one.
This whole blogging world has introduced me to a lot of things to pray for. Babies, Families, Other Mom's. When they suffer. I pray because I don't see suffering as a prize I see it as a punishment. I am so burdened for some of these things it brings me to tears that they might be suffering for Christ because they have been granted that. I know that. I guess in the midst of life it's not the PC thing I want to go to. Praise God that he grants the suffering in our lives I have peace that he is there also. So I write this with a humbled heart.
Lord, forgive me for being so short sighted and forgetting once again that you have a hand in everything. That you grant the things that come into our lives. Thank you for showing me this and continue to work on my foolish thought process's. You are the one in control.
Ephesians 6:19 Pray also for me, that whenever I open my mouth, words may be given me so that I will fearlessly make known the mystery of the gospel, 20 for which I am an ambassador in chains. Pray that I may declare it fearlessly, as I should.
love you guys.